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10.24.2008

I'm so fucking paranoid & hot tempered & i need to kill myself.
So i've been thinking alot lately, i can guess you can call me a bitch a times but not all the time. I'm a softie at heart, i give in easily & many poeple have used this weekness to take adavantage of me. I apologise right now to those who got angry w me or those who i've angered. I'm so confused i can hardly think. I'm just praying for the best. I want God, i want to feel his presence again.
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I spent my dad today w Brendan huns, Jeanette Ong, Ariel & Bianchine at Bainchine's condo. PP in the morning, slacked the whole day. Got my hair extensions. It's red & pretty! (: i want more! hohoho. Shall updtae when i'm in a better mood.


Katie, don't cry, I know
You're trying your hardest
And the hardest part is letting, go
Of the nights we shared
Ocala is calling and you know it's haunting
But compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright
And when we look to the sky, its not mine, but i want it so

You're all I hoped I'd find
In every single way
And everything I could give
Is everything you couldn't take
Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay

So let's not pretend that you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, she'll say yes

for a pessimist, im pretty optimistic
7:03 PM